I'm sorry for the lack of updates recently. I've been super busy with stuff. Okay, let's be honest about everything that's going on in my life. I'm trying to get a license in a business field so I can make an actual living on the side of all this stuff. I just want to provide for my family but also my first love. However, the license is expensive as fuck! Now, a lot of people might find this to be a discouragement. Seriously, take some time to consider this situation.
I need to save money to get a license for a better job but also need to get stuff together for a feature length film that will begin shooting in October.
Yes, that is really how my life is right now. However, I'm coping and managing to both get my life and my film together. It's just a little harder than I want to admit. Plus, I'm having my premiere party at the end of this week and am going to let everyone in attendance know that I'm going to begin shooting on the 30th of September. Even if not everything is together, I definitely plan to start shooting then.
I'm scared...I'm terrified. The little voice in my head that told me I wouldn't make Invisible Diary is pissed and he's screaming that this film won't happen. No, I don't really HEAR voices but I'm sure everyone has that mental nay-sayer that keeps them from pursuing what they want. I just usually punch him in the gut and tell him to go fuck himself. I guess I'm really just scared the film will fall through. I'm just drowning myself in a glass of water I suppose.
There is some good news that I haven't posted on here because I wanted it to be a surprise. I sent Invisible Diary of a Disabled Man off to Sundance about two weeks ago and am eagerly waiting to hear if the film was accepted or not. It really worries me. I guess since most people make drama films their first go, it just feels like such an amateur thing to do to churn out a drama film for my first REAL short film. If you look at my filmography page it's obvious that I've done other short films but that was mainly me adjusting to the camera. This film, I used the camera, directed the actors, and operated the boom mic. It actually turned out REALLY damn well considering.
That is one thing I want to change when I shoot Through the Devil's Eyes I want a small crew (maybe 5 people max) just so I can feel more within MY element. I never want to stop growing as a filmmaker. Hell, I never want to stop growing as a human being. I want to be able to look on a situation and see if I approach things differently each time. If my feature ends up looking well, then I'm pleased. I just really want to evolve as a filmmaker. Let's just see where I go from here.