Okay, so I don't think I've talked about Keeping Justice for quite some time, on the website anyway. I mention stuff here and there on twitter, gab and occasionally facebook but those are small details; when you want the big fish you check in on DecadesApartFilms.com. I think I've mentioned in the past that I'm trying to get some bands on the soundtrack for the film. I've now received permission from all of the artists to use their music. They've all been awesome about everything so I'd like to ask that you guys please give them support by picking up some music from them.
Elephant Gun Riot
As I said, they've all been really cool and I just think it would be really cool if you showed these great people some love.
In other news, Paco has sent over a few music samples to give me an idea for Keeping Justice's theme and I just wanted to share that with you guys.
Oh and I realized that I forgot to share a little of the animation segment that I keep talking about. You guys probably think I'm crazy, but no it's totally real.
I'm so excited to show this movie to the world, so many people have been seeing bits and pieces and they're all very excited. We've also recently received a very nice review for A Final Hit.
This is all stuff that's been going on while I've been away from the website. I don't want you guys to think that I've given up or I just don't care anymore, I just don't feel like updating as much as I did when I first started out. I remember back in 2013 when I was making Invisible Diary that I shared everything with you guys (the ups and the downs) but as time has gone on, I share less and less. Mostly because I want people to await the final product but also because my schedule has become so hectic that I no longer can update as much as I once did.
Anyway, if you've stuck around this long, here is a little cherry on top of the sundae of Keeping Justice updates: a small clip from Keeping Justice.
Have you ever just felt off your game? That's how I've been feeling lately. I just feel off my game lately. I'm going to finish Keeping Justice, of course I am. I've just been dealing with a lot lately and it's just a lot to process.
I just wanted to update you guys so you're not worried about me. I'm okay, just dealing with a lot. If you don't hear from me for a while, that's why.
Well, I got a job today, a normal every day job. Please do not congratulate me. I really wanted to run my own business and do my own thing, unfortunately, it didn't work out. I feel like I've failed. On top of this, I don't feel like finishing Keeping Justice. I'll finish it, of course, I just don't think I'll ever enjoy it.
Let's go back a few weeks. I started working with this guy who was going to help me get business going. I met with the guy and he had several good suggestions I tried to put into practice but nothing seemed to work out. He suggested I contact a local newspaper and a local radio station to promote Keeping Justice, I was game. I reached out to both sources and the newspaper is only interested once the movie comes out (which I'm not even sure when that's going to be right now since the animation has been delayed) and the radio says "sure, give us a copy of the movie." So I did.
The radio station watches the film and says they don't like it and besides that, they don't talk to filmmakers anyway. Then they ask to see the film when the music and animation sequence are finished. No. That is not how this works. You said you don't like it, nothing is going to change that. See, I thought Keeping Justice was really good, I think that's why I'm hurt.
I'm not hurt though. I just feel tired of jumping through hoops with these "industry people". I already know my films won't appeal to them because we make B-movies. I'm tired of telling people that I'm a filmmaker and that our films are listed on Amazon and I'm still not taken seriously. I'm tired of feeling that not even my family really gives a shit as to what I'm doing. I know it's me against the world but I thought that at some point I would have allies.
Maybe I would have allies if this wasn't the path I chose. If I actually picked something normal to do with my life. I have sacrificed so much on the altar of film, yet I feel I have nothing to show for it. I'm an outsider living in a world of insiders. I'm a nobody fighting like hell to be a somebody. I gambled on so much and I've only lost a lot.
That might be why I'm so attracted to Metal. It's the genre that feels like no matter who you are, you have a place where you belong. I get along with dudes in bands way more than film industry people. You know how watching interviews with Spielberg you get the feeling he's a douche bag? Now imagine a bunch of dudes like that and you get an average film set. I don't feel like I belong in their world.
I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I feel I'm just saying stupid stuff. I don't think I'm going to give up. I know that film is a pain in the ass but it's still something I love, I just need to get away from the people that make me hate it.