I decided to post to kick off 2014 the right way...wait RJ, aren't you supposed to have a bitchin' new website? Um, yeah, but I'm also trying to finish off a feature film. So yeah, there's that. I'll probably have that bitchin' website in a few months. Ha ha, and then a few months later I'm still too busy to get said website.
Anyway, I wanted to just say that I've edited the first hour and ten minutes of the film. Granted, I still need folly and music and color correction and all that fun stuff but the movie is looking pretty decent. I guess to me, it looks decent enough...and I hate everything I make. So yeah, I'm pretty happy right now. I would have it finished if there weren't a few scenes that I needed to shoot and well...it's January in Colorado and everyone is getting sick. I also realized that come next Monday, the 20th, it'll have been a year since my life feels like it started down this path. I feel like I've grown a lot in the past year. Not only as a director but as a person, as a person with faith, as a father, as everything. Juggling this life feels crazy but I've managed. I've had my problems with my films but looking back on them, they seem so insignificant. I guess it's just one of those in the moment things. This film has had a lot of hiccups but looking at it overall, I'm pretty happy with it. Ha ha, remind me I said that after I've watched it like 80 times. It just seems so crazy. This time last year, my life seemed like shit. I'm serious. My car, the Ubermobile was destroyed first day of the new year. I didn't have a job at all. I had just written this screenplay to cope with a shooting and wanted to film it soon but felt that I wouldn't be able to. I really wanted to shoot Invisible Diary of a Disabled Man, a screenplay I'd been sitting on since I was 18. Shit, I wanted an imdb page more than anything.
Yet, here I am and I have all those things and I'm happy with them. Invisible Diary wasn't as amazing as I hoped it would be but it was a decent enough film, especially being shot on $600. Through the Devil's Eyes isn't as amazing as I hoped it would be either but looking at it, I am surprised that I made it. Me, this freaking 24 year old man child, made a pretty decent movie. And yeah, I'm happy with it at the time of this writing. What am I going to do with it after I'm done? I don't know. I'm more concerned finishing the film.
I know this film won't live on and become something great but I know it'll push me forward to make a film like that. That's what I mean about growing as a filmmaker, I've been thinking a lot more in depth about the movies that I'm watching. Questioning if Quentin Tarantino's movies will transcend time and become cinematic gold. Questioning what it is about current directors that people enjoy so much. Questioning if I should just not watch any movie made within the past twenty years to see if it can stand the test of time or just shit its britches. These are the things I've been thinking. I know Through the Devil's Eyes won't be a film to transcend time, like I just said, but I really would like it to entertain people with the cheesy mystery movie that I set out to make. I'll keep you guys in the loop but I at least wanted to just reminisce about the last year and all the things that have changed in my life.