You'll Never Be Good Enough
All right, haven't posted a rant/update in forever. Mostly because updates are being done via newsletter and I have been trying to hold off on my ranting for a bit. I don't think it's good for me though because I tend to become more angry about the industry when I don't blow off some steam in this little private area. So, before I rip into the industry with my words, I would like to shower some praise.
Have you seen Summer of '84? If not, you should see it, it's fantastic! Sure, the story isn't really anything new but the characters are really well done. It also really captures the 80's aesthetic, my only complaint is they had a Polybius machine in the arcade at one point. However, if that's my only complaint in a modern film, I think it's safe to say that the film is pretty bad ass.
Anyway, onto the main reason why I decided to write this article...post...thing.
I was browsing twitter, just looking for some sweet shitposts and lo and behold, I found the above tweet. Now, the reason this tweet annoyed me is not the tweet itself but the ideology that I've been seeing passed around in the art community for some time. It's basically a loving yourself ideology. Look, I'm all for loving yourself but lately, people have been taking it too far. I admit, I'm a heavier dude, but I love myself enough not to let myself put on any more weight. This is all beside the point.
Look, no matter how many times I'm told on twitter not to compare myself to Kurosawa, I'm still going to compare myself to Kurosawa. Akira Kurosawa was the greatest filmmaker who ever lived so of course, I'm going to compare every film I make to one of his. Silver Stars on Red Velvet might be better than The Most Beautiful (aka Kurosawa's worst film). However, I compare myself to guys like Kurosawa and Leone and Carpenter because I want to be better than them. I want to surpass Kurosawa some day.
The best compliment I have ever received is that I've made a ridiculous amount of leaps forward with every film that I've made. It is due to comparing myself to directors that I admire. It's the desire to one day obliterate Seven Samurai. That is the biggest reason I continue to make movies. I keep thinking my next film will blow Seven Samurai out of the water.
As I said initially, I think this type of thinking is making us lazy. It's making us accept our current circumstances and not seek to improve. I know people who have adopted this type of attitude and they are lazy and never want to do better.
I work normal day jobs to help pay for my films and equipment and everything else. I work these jobs so I can work towards something better, work towards something I want more. I want to work towards my film to surpass Dersu Uzala, to surpass The Bad Sleep Well, to surpass Seven Samurai.
That desire to be better is what drives me to want our DVDs to look awesome, to have decent content on them. It's what drives me to go totally insane whenever I'm putting together a shipment. I want nothing more than to be better. It's why I've been updating the website's homepage, creating shopping accounts, creating the newsletter, and working on films.
At the end of the day, I want our fans to be happy; but what I want more than anything else is to answer a simple question "would I buy from Decades Apart Productions?"
That is why I'll never stop comparing myself to others.
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